I know. It's too hard to find it, to tap into that creative space and pull from it. We are too vulnerable; with everything going on in the world and in our nation, it just hurts too much. I know. I feel it, too. But we are needed.
It hit me today as I sat at my desk, humming the refrain of 'Hallelujah,' over and over again. Cohen, I thought, was a poet. He would have been able to make sense of this. Because that's what poets do. As Gwendolyn Brooks said, and my sister lives, "Poetry is life distilled."
I will (with all due respect) take this one step further: Art is life distilled. It is finding the essential and extracting it. You've felt it, right? Something - word, song, photo, paint, animation - something hits you with a ferocity that leaves you shaking. It makes you realize, as though for the first time, that true beauty is a jagged edge. It tears you open and drives you to your knees, leaving you gasping and quivering, and somehow in need of more. You are changed. Tender, open. Broken.
So we are driven to our craft, to our art. We find it deep within us and we pull it out. It may be loud, it may be soft. It could be for the world to see, or the solace you find in your quiet garden. But you create. You recognize the need.
Artists, we are needed.
We need to show up and let the light shine through our brokenness. Because that is our super power, our secret weapon: we do not cover up the hurt. We use it. We harness it. We face it and direct it. We are broken open time and time again, and it lets us see the world with a vision others refuse to face.
We breathe in hurt and breathe out love.
In.
Out.
In.
Out.
Artists, we are needed.
We are needed to take a step forward, even though the air is heavy and the bog hinders our progress. One step, and then another, and then another - until the earth firms beneath our feet just enough for us to rest, for only a moment, before moving again.
I have been suspended this week, held in the air, frozen, unable to move as I looked all around me. Looking through the words I have seen hurt. Hurt all over. I see it and I feel it. It presses on my shoulders, my chest, my back. Down, down, down.
I turned to look for the light, and saw in surprise that it shone through me, through my broken parts. So I took a deep breath, and then another, and then I lifted my head.
I cannot promise it will all be okay. I don't that it will; I am not a Seer. I can look at the past and see what we've survived, and I can glean hope from that. But empty assurances are not helpful, especially to those who feel fear and hurt and despair directly in their lives. So I won't offer them.
Instead, I promise this: I will watch, and see what is going on around me. I will listen and hear what those who are afraid and hurting have to say. I will make certain my path is safe for any who come across it. I will be the vessel for the Speaker: Come to me, He says, and I will give you rest. The sun will rise and set, and I will let it shine through me. The earth will turn on its axis, and I will mirror the dance. The wind will arrive, sometimes drifting, sometimes whipping, and I will let it blow through me, sweeping away the darkness.
Artists, we are needed.
But what if - you ask - what if I don't create art?
I have a secret for you. Come close, and listen.
Artists, I believe, are nothing more or less than those of us who still remember we are all human. We live our art in an infinite number of ways: gardening, cooking, writing, painting, designing, dancing, animating, singing, composing, speaking, running, lifting...the list goes on and on. The only thing that makes us artists is the recognition that we share a nature. We see that the lines of connection have been covered, they have been twisted and stretched and even torn, but they have not broken. We are still all connected; we belong to each other.
We see this and we live this.
Artists. We are needed.
